Friday, 20 February 2026

More than a thousand.




The drive back from the hospital     -      was uneventful.  

 

Thank you.

Small mercies.

 

It was night by the time he drove down through the forest to the house, the shepherd’s delight of the evening long gone. As the darkness settled in, only the light from the headlamps offered hope.    A hare     -    sleek, beautiful    -   hopped across the track and climbed the bank, before disappearing into the trees. At the next turning, the white rears of two deer reflected the hope back and he smiled as he watched them slowly drop from sight, he was in no hurry to restart the engine.         He sat           -         waited.

 

It started to rain.

 

The drops      -      diamonds    -   ran down the windscreen. One. Two      -     six. Then there were too many to see, their unpolished beauties merged into a formless wash. He drove on and parked closer to the house than usual, he would have to run to her sanctuary or become

           wet.

 

In the entrance he pulled off his soaking shoes and threw them in the box where others more suitable for the weather lay unused    -    hers    -     the door      -     open. The rain fell like a waterfall and through it he could see little      -   imagine    -    too much.

 

What if?

 

Where?

 

Would he?                        Leave?                         Stay?

 

He closed the door, but didn’t move. He could the rain, heavy on the stone path. The table outside.

 

The empty wheel barrow. 

 

He could hear the pipes gasping, the radiators sighing. 

 

His heart.

 

Hers.

 

From a thousand miles.

 

 

 

Saturday, 14 February 2026

Like it's your birthday.




Was it really in 1991 as it says on this certificate, at the dying edge of a winter, when the snow covered the city streets with a late surprise? In a city unused to snow at any time?     


“When were you born?”

“Why are you asking me? I was too young to remember … you were there, you remember.”

“You were there too, besides …. maybe I’m too old to remember.”

“Oh come on, you’re not that old.”

“Thank you.”


 It wasn’t true though, I felt old. Asking the question made me feel older, like it was important to straighten things out before it was too late. 


Who was it who said ‘he who is isn’t busy being born is busy dying’? 


Suddenly, I couldn’t even remember that. 


Then I remembered, Bob. Mr Dylan. 


And, with one memory tumbling into place, a chain of others fell like dominoes, one after the next until there were hundreds lying on the table in front of me.