I should point out that this month - ramblings - are just that; ramblings from my mind over the last two months (July and August) and do not necessarily represent me today. But they do constitute in their own way a part of The Archives. This is explained, i think, here.
On January the 1st, 1980 I was 27 days short of my 25th birthday.
10 years later I wrote in my diary – “Happy
New Year. New decade, new diary. A lot of things can happen in 10 years…”
In 1980 I had seen the New year begin from
the outside of a party in Oaxaca, Mexico, ten years later I was on the outside
edge of a party in Portobello road, London.
Although a lot of things can happen, HAD
happened - I hadn’t learnt how to move from that outside edge.
I still haven’t.
In 2000 I’m not sure where I was, but more
importantly I forgot to look back over the previous decade and take stock.
In 1990 – two partnerships had been and
gone, I’d grown up and fallen in love.
By 2000 I had become a dad.
In 2010 I again forgot to look back and
take stock – just too busy I guess.
Or maybe it’s something you do in your
thirties; maybe taking stock is what it’s all about.
In your forties and fifties perhaps you
just move the stock around a bit.
In 2010, when the New Year slipped in I’m
pretty sure I was way outside of the edge of the party going on in London.
I’m often happier now out on that edge, or
a bit beyond.
But 2000?
It’s bothering me.
I need to look.
Hang on……
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3 comments:
At least you go to the parties. I've an adversity to atttending or being asked even. For big parties or especially ones like New Years, I generally tell my friends and relatives ahead of time that they don't have to extend an invite.
I appreciate the generosity of my hosts but always feel that I'd rather be reading a book listening to music or watching a movie.
Too late to become the life of the party I guess.
Mx
Tracks of my tears?
Not quite. Just years of having to be in places and circumstances not of my choosing. You get to a point where you realize you are running out of time to be where want to be and to do what you want to do.
Mx
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